haha wow

So two days in a row went to bed at 6am hahaha literally saw the sun rising this morning when i went to bed haha. Yesterday was a lot of fun good funny moments loved it Thank you for all the people that came yesterday! Now today i got to play my beloved sport basketball again fucking anatomy pmo so it was nice to go out and shoot hoops with crew again. I need to get back into shape again anyways and now i sit on my bed delaying on anatomy hw sigh the hw keeps on getting longer every time blahhh. but on the bright side MARCH IS AROUND THE CORNER  COLLEGE ACCEPTANCES PLEASE UCIN, DEPAUL, ITHACA TAKE ME i love your guys school thank you bye! ahahhaha

20th birthday!

Yay happy birthday me! thank you everyone for your birthday wishes to me means a lot! so i went to bed at like 6am today haha talking to people and what not good shit right woke up at 10 didnt get out of my bed till 12 ate some udon. My dad came home today from his business trip today i guess its nice that hes back but i dont get to use the living room freely now sad face...


but now im almost off to K1 with my friends pretty excited hopefully ill have pictures and videos of k1 today and thenn KRN BBQ TODAY YEH YEH hhaha so pretty excited for today hope every goes well and hope the rain doesnt fuck up too many people anyways thanks everyone and have  a nice day!

4hours till im 20 lol

I dunno wether to be excited to be 20 in a couple hours i guess thats pretty nifty thing. i have a pretty fun jam packed day waiting for me k1 krn bbq hanging out with friends a lot of things to do tmrw i cant wait one more year after tmrw then 21 ahhaa VEGAS baby! For those coming tomorrow hopefully we can all have fun! Ohhhhh best thing i ever ate the new episode is coming on tonight gotta watch it cant miss it! anyways will update tmrw about my so called jam packed day coming up!

a Chip on my shoulder

Publish Post

hmmm i must agree with this picture cept i feel this way maybe like 300 days of the 365 in a year maybe more.. it seems in my life i have a chip on my shoulder im not going to digress too much upon this but  one because im sure people dont really care about my hate stories  but its been bothering me so i guess ill type out my fury to some extent... I guess its a conflicting thought and yet hard to understand. Do i love my brother and sister? I dont know because as much as i want to say yes at the same time i hate them with a passion. all my life they fueled this space for love but yet this feeling of hate. It's like whatever i do its not good enough just because they went to berkley big deal... my sisters a fine lawyer now great whats my brother a worthless piece of shit. What ever i do whether i do good or bad its always i get compared to that little shit. when ever i do something bad "why cant u be like janet and robert" when i do something good "robert is (insert fail at work)" i never get talked about i'm "only child" so wheres the attention i get none i get none Here i am close to going some where good #4 in the nation for my major and my dad here still is telling me why arnt u going to berkley. I just wish people could understand that Berkley isnt great for everything too bad i want to go somwhere with my life and away from where i live im glad i can leave. I met too many people here who dont appreciate the talent side of people and only think academics is the best majors not going to state any names but im tired of people like this i guess it cant be helped because we are in a state with high academic universities but sitll poor and dumb as shit anyways how does that work? i dont know but im glad that i could be going somwhere where my presence is going to be appreciated unlike these shit hole fags in california and people wonder why i want to leave CA why dont u go ask ure self why wouldnt u want to leave this shitty ass state. cource if ure reading this it probably doesnt make sense cause theres alot of info missing and facts that help the story but i dont care enough for who ever is reading if anyone is to understand my story this is more for me not anyone else. i just want to be accepted as not such a failure in life and not a disgrace but then again im starting not to care anymore cause i try and its like whatever i do its not good enough so whatever maybe this isnt the place for me

you would think couple days before my birthday id be happy and chirpy ha what a wrong guess there

argh!!!

Damn schools been kinda screwing me over with my blogger entrying ness. At least today anatomy wasnt such a bitch we're actually getting along for once but i feel like i let myself down my goal of doing entries every day=fail sigh*! oh well this week is gonna be a good week couple more days until i hit the big two OH pretty stoked going to k1 and krn bbq thats pretty win celebration if u ask me but then agian after i have to start studying for anatomy test two weeks from now haha so i guess fun first study later is how it goes ahha. But in all honestly i feel pretty blessed with the stuff thats been happening recently with me I have a chance for some greatness for my career in theatre and so many great things coming up. So world thanks for everything even anatomy well depends hahah i guess anatomy can be good some times (:

WOW FILMING WEEKEND

Damn i was tired as shit this morning but i didn't do much today due to waking up so damn late but here the link to our master piece

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5xSvdsRro8I

anyways so i woke up ate lunch then did some anatomy hw once again stressing my brain out like usual. but i got to cook dinner today made me happy (: 

Spinach Carbonara FTW!!!!!!! 

it came out so good so i was very pleased anyways good weekend very busy very tired but very much a fun packed weekend! as i do my laundry right now ahha

FILMING!

OH MY so tired we just finished filming like 2 hours ago and editing SIGH* so tired youtube is taking so long to upload our video but once i get it up ill share the link but yeah man today was a long day 8 hour filming day GG 2 hours of editing so tireddddd but yeahh today was a pretty fun day now tmrw to do anatomy FUCK!!!!!

faiiiillll

DAMNNNN I didnt write in my blog last night and thursday wow epic faillllllll :/ oh well ill be updating about my day today is once again another filming day for HARROW (:

ANATOMY SUCKS

i hate anatomy :/ simple and short today almost time for interview on friday (: anyways gotta try to go finish  short one for today (:

I HATE ANATOMY

WOW SUCH A HARD CLASS SO MANY FUCKING VOCAB WORDS FOR CHAPTER 1 already SHIT! lol man my professor is so gg hes like for the lab if u misspell the word on the lab test u get it wrong sucks wow so not fair and then the homework is so gg hard its like i met anatomy today and i already broke up with it lol so sadall these bones and wording for certain things like freaking arm is brachial WTF man ITS A ARM UGH RAWR but other then that contemp health sounds interesting lets see how jap is tmrw and dramtic lit please dont be dick move like anatomy

Last day of Break

I spent day as T if you know what i mean. haha other then that i woke up with a minor cold which kinda sucked meh but i just watched food network all day and played some ps3 good shit. It was definitely a good break now im in the Home stretch before transferring. I have rotted my brain enough with COD, Final fantasy 13 and madden and nba live so now back to school and Grease. I'm actually kinda excited for grease believe it or not though i know a lot would disagree with me. Is all good ill be sure to help it make it run for everyones money. Though i must admit the waiting game is killing me not having school is making me think about college interviews and where i got in or hope to get in and the ideal situation and all that shit i find myself looking at the school's programs for every school applied to imagining myself there shit i wish they could just tell you there if you get in or not RAWR i just wanna know where i wanna get in.

Sundae Grenade

SO today HAPPY SINGLES AWARENESS DAY! HURRAAAAHHH Sigh* well its almost done yay Valentines day pretty GG holiday if you ask me because chances are people are just as emotional and passionate with their significant others on a daily basis anyways. So its like wow lets celebrate a holiday where we just state out the passionate feelings for each other and make it public so stupid. Yes im just cynical that i dont have a valentine either but whatever. Plus it wasn't so bad cause according to some people im a BP so GG ahhaah i dont know if thats really a compliment or insult but is all goood.

On a better note finally Harrow Productions is back on track we made our Chinese New Years Video it was some good shit lol Now how did i spend the day? We made the story board and filmed this morning and into mid way into the afternoon It was good to be back in filming and all that stuff fun stuff heres the link to our video

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6RG3f_JoNxw

Later i hung out with my friends at china town so random but it was fun we ate at sam woo good chinese food Then steven and eric went to MCD and got sundays then Steven came up with the great invention Sundae GRENADE/CLAYMORE/SHOTGUN LAWL some good shit. At the end of the day i had a pretty good day except for some exceptions with certain people cause they would fuck it up but degaf!

Song of the day-Vanilla Twilight (Owl City)

I have FCA

So i know people are wondering wtf is FCA man Food Channel Addiction. i swear now i have HD on my cable the food just looks like million times better all i do is watch FC now all the time when i get home hahaha and on the weekends too. Tho i must admit i love throw down with Bobby Flay and The Best thing i ever ate those are probably one of the best shows. Man i should start watching top chef again i was so into that show during my senior year in high school ha ha All i do is watch liek FC from liek 3pm-6:30 until fucking crazy Paula comes on then i switch back to Friends and the office haha

Anyways today was pretty chill woke up my window area in my room all clean now yesterday or more like this morning at like 2 am haha had to clean the mold buildup from the rain so nasty but now its all clean it was fresh way to wake up. I went to play basketball for the first time in like a month today it felt really good even tho i played pretty crappy meh itll pick up as it goes.

Dinner i had Kimchi hot pot japanese style some good shit keeps you warm and now im still watching food channel as i type haha Guy's Dine n dive hahaha i just love food channel (:

pretty fucked up Friday

I must admit today was pretty weird day and yet interesting... Day started off normal like any other day woke up played some ps3 then went to west to take care of some work stuff and see some friends i havnt seen in a while that part its all normal and grand its what happened the 2nd half of my day.

So couple of my friends and i went to carrows to just eat and hang out what not table  next to us was some crazy shit. This mexican family just had a rage fit like i guess from what we conspired watching the scene and the small dialog that was announced in the restaurant. The youngest girl in the family was shocked to find that her dad is seeing someone new already after her mom had died and flipped and threw her water then her dad got up to slap her then the oldest sister got up to get her sis's back and she was like "My Mom just died I cant believe him" or something relevantly close to that and the girls booked it and the dad booked it and the lady the dude was seeing was like pft just leave them but the dad went after her kids and he took a smack at them. Some pretty fucked up shit. Yet no one in the restaurant did anything when the dad hit his child thats some wrong shit doing that shit in public its not right at all :/

why cant we hug shit out sigh* BUT i hope everyone has a good weekend!

Good day yesterday

so i have 6 min left to write about today so today was like epic fail to epic greatness within the last couple hours tho i must admit im quite surprised on how things have turned out for my friends and I. It a good feeling to know everything is back to normal for us. Im done hating on certain people it was like a catalysis effect that made me hate on more things that i didnt need to hate on and im sorry for if it caused any trouble to anyone. Just knowing that everythings gonna be fixed is a great feeling oh shit one min left gotta post this now so anyways everything all good happy day i got 4.0 this semester and everythings fixed legit day so i failed to finish this in 6min lol so i guess i shal digress more i just really hope things stay the way they are now cause like for real i literally just dropped everything now cause of this awesome ness flowing around just hope it sticks around till the end!

Retards in Our World

i swear im so surprised at some people and how insecure they can be about certain things..... Its like come on What can possibly go wrong Its just practicing I mean i can understand if its someone thats not in our field of theatre but i mean especially if your part of this You should understand how important it is for practicing with one another especially if its duet like for real pretty retarded shit yo. But at the same time thats why some people will not make it to the professional level cause of this glass wall they are facing. The inablity of putting away personal things to acheive what is asked to be done to make a perfect show. Now thats what u need to make it to the professional level. If this was someone i didn't care about i wouldn't be ranting about this because it is about someone i care about it just sucks to see this happen Its like you try to make it happen and help them but they just keep on fucking up it sucks a lot... 
Only wishing for the endless possiblities like this endless blue ocean only wishing for a more positive endless solutions.... God i dont ask for much actually thats a lie but still I only want my last show to be good so can u help me out and help my cause just this once i think i ran out of magic

Winter Session

LOL wow i cant believe i got a A in nutrition considering i did practically nothing in that class. I was playing Final Fantasy + Mario Tennis  every day in that class on my laptop  and slept in class its amazing how i got a A. I didnt even really study for that final lol I pretty much learned nothing in that class haha. That was defiantly a good start to my day. Now if i get a A in english 4.0 this semester im pretty stoked hopefully i get that A first 4.0 semester if i do! My day is defiantly starting Sunny (: OH yeah OWL CITY CONCERT APRIL (:

YES FINALLY DONE For NOW!

So today was the last day of the semester it was pretty good i must admit and yet surprising. Starting with my final in nutrition all t/f questions which was pretty pwn and the professor told us when in doubt just pick true because majority of the test of true haha pretty win. So the final only took about 20 min ish from 8:20-10 i was in the library in the comp lab on em shitty comps downstairs.... THen ENGLISH omg so funny so we had a socratic this guy in our class this guy is the ultimate weirdo and lurk and nutcase all in one. He was reading one of his quotes then went off talking about cucumbers??? and narrated his quotes with different retarded voices hahah it was pretty GG if u ask me then going home rained like no other Now im in my living room playing COD lol tmrw is going to be a start of a pretty bomb week Hope everyone else had a fun day! 18 more days till my birthday yay!!!!

Last day of the semester tmrw

So Props for my friend ( you know who you are) that indirectly got me to start blogger again? haha I guess i missed out venting here on this lonely blog. Semester ends tomorrow so ill start to update the world once more with my life again ahha Joy (: OWL CITY FOR THE WIN!