school and such

GROSS i havnt posted in nearly a month geez tsk tsk me. so i know i exactly havnt been too good with keeping up with keeping up writing here but cut me some slack i been dying in many different ways.

So ill summerize life since i been here first week were not too bad and around week 4 i got sick along with rest of my class then i ended up being sick for 3 weeks and had tracheitus which sucked felt like i was dying every day. Classes are hardcore hard for me right now. i really feel like im super behind from everyone in my class and we just got mid term grades and they werent the greatest. Bearly passing all my classes and had to end up dropping my dumb writing class which the teacher doesnt know how to grade and teach even if her life depended on it. but other then that all my other classes have been fun but hard surprisingly im doing well in my drawing class and doing the best in it ironic i know right crazy. our department right now is in production of chicago so its been crazy cause its full of alumni designers with broadway exp and tony winners and nominees its a pretty crazy mood over here in ithaca. I def love the weather here even though its cold but i love it better then home so thats a plus. I def miss my friends tho from back home james hannah tiff kelsey eric chris and others i really miss you guys. I'm def excited for winter break because i have some video projects coming up with people back at home so ill be more active on youtube again. I havnt had the time to film stuff here and there just because the nature of our program. But yes i am alive bearly mentally but physically a lot better then 4 weeks ago when i was dying ha i honestly thought i was gonna die somewhere back couple weeks back but i didnt yay so thats a quick update of the last couple months hope everyones having fun with school and i will try to update when i can again! check out the photos on fb from our campus they are so pretttyyyyyyy!

god i fail

man its been realllllly long time since i updated since i got to school so sorry its just been so hectic with so much reading and work already in like week 6 or something of school. But despite all these things its been lots of fun and also heartbreaking in some classes lol. its like you do a project or paper and you feel like YES i thnk i got this and u get it back your like oh what the fuck! but i mean its been fun kinda getting the hang of it no. Surprisingly i dont miss back so much as i thought i would be especially because its hot as hell over there now. im totally delaying my process of doing work right now i have like one paper to write and do some cue sheets and cornell box to do still gah but yeah just thought i should update i recently posted a video i shot at school with our scenery so def go check that out http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FyfTSze-ll8 our campus is reallllly pretty so its worth the watch! anyways ill try to write again soon!

ahhhh finallllyyy at ithacaaa

so i know i havent been posting for a while my bad i been so busy with life with packing up and moving and such but now im at ithaca last two days been awesome. im actually okay with the rain cause i like rain so thats a plus for me everything has been so good for me so far . I met lots of new people went to department meetings and such. i start school tmrw which is really exciting and also one step into hell as well but its all gonna be worth it!. anyways i hope things have been going well for everyone else and hope everyone is having fun with their lives

Time is ticking.....

So time is ticking away i think now its like 5 weeks till i goto ithaca....Wow what a scary thought. Confession time i gotta admit i was so ready to leave but now with only 5 weeks left i have so much left to do, i dont have enough time to accomplish them i still need to hang out with so many more people before i go. So much has happened this summer kinda makes me not wanna leave yet but i guess this is one of those times where u gotta swallow your pride and buckle down and get with it. Sounds like a plan brian. side note i have to retire my car before i go such sad news lol first car i ever get i have to retire LOL irony much ahha 28 days left till i leave for ithaca

whatsername!!!!!! Music videooo

sooo i havnt been updating in a long time because i been working on this project and now its done so i hope you guys go and check it out if you have a youtube account please go like it and leave a comment wether you liked it hated and any comments about the video. thanks for watching! in case if you guys were wondering what i been doing in palms spring this would be the answer ( make sure you check it out in HD

whatsername?

Ah so its been a while since i updated

well let me update you with my life then......

nothings has really happened within the last couple days

lets seee.......

My dad came home from his business trip so no more bang parties and such at my house anymore :/

hmm currently reliving middle school days with 

good charlotte and green day and avril lavigne

pretty win if you ask me

currently addicted to well as u can see from my title  whatsername and 21 guns both great songs

hopefully i can find the cast to do music video for whatsername

but other then my reliving moment lets see

oh im carless now its in the shop now trying to get fixed so i can pass that smog test

mmmmm oh im going to palms spring from thursday till sunday

maybe some morongo on the way back home?

we'll see??

other then that summer has been not too bad

gotta finish some health certifications for ithaca which ill probably go do now

OH YEAH new addiction fruit.....

PINEAPPLES! 

Anyways i hope you guys are having a great day and have a rest of great summer!

Yellow Cherries!!!!!!!

So today i went to bed at 3 am and woke up at 7 am 

to goto my parents to go do labor work yay (not)

i went in at 9 am we didnt even get started till like 1030? something like that 

i could have slept extra hour or so but oh welllllll

spent couple hours carrying 100 pound plus shit 

then went to tennis in the afternoon

came home and just chilled out

here comes the best part of the day tho 

my mom bought yellow cherries again for me to snack on (:

gotta love these things so sweet and tangyy and yummmmyyyy 

anyways so today was overall pretty good day

Plams springs next week pretty stoked 

and im kinda getting my tennis back so its ALL GOOD (:

tomorrow i start to learn sewing from a friend in the morning till the afternoon ish 

 then i have a quick appointment with my doctor 

and then tennis

Tomorrow is gonna be pretty good day well i hope 

lets hope i dont sew my fingers together 

PRAY for me! lol

New york trip (:

So i havnt been posting recently my bad but i been in newyork in the past couple days. So i left to goto new york with Alec on thursday july first at 7 am early flight so we ended up not going to bed that night cause alec came over to make carpooling alot easier cause we had to goto lax at  5am so we ended up not going to bed so i was pretty tired at the airport.  the flight wasnt too bad i slept alot on the airplane.

New york was super hot every dayyy stayed at my friend heathers house which was really fun her family was so nice and caring. it was nice to be able to travel on a subway every day and not drive hated driving so it was a nice break to be able to take. the food was expensive but worth it. oh yeah but heathers mom makes some bombb food.

but the two shows i watched American Idiot + Next to Normal was amazinnnnggggg i got my program and poster signed pretty awesome

even though tony vincent and jon galagar didnt sign my play bill it was a BOMB show any lighting designers dream and even tho alice ripley or Jennifer daminio didnt sign my n2n poster very touching and intense show So i epic failed on making a video because i was so busy every day with stuff but theres pictures on fb from the trip and yeah the weather was hottt so i totally broke out which sucked :/ but i met some awesome people like heather and christine who are my classmates for next  year so good stuff over all the trip was awesome and very hotttt but i def cant wait to be back in new york for school in the falll its gonna be an awesome fall (:

Omg heather has the most amazing bear ever at her house I loved ittt i wanted to take it home with me soooo badddd  it was sooo awesome like 4ft tall ish but yeah overall the trip rocked sorry for not much details i dont really feel like typing it all out but you can always ask if u want to know but people if u have a chance to see any of the two shows i saw def you should go check it out its worth the time and money! hope everyones having much fun as i am with their summer!

YAY NEW YORK TOMORROW!!!

i know its been a while since i updated but i been pretty busyy this past week kind of lol too busy playing bang tho! hahahaha anyways so tomorrow i leave for new york to meet up with scott to go see next to normal and american idiot (:

im so excited to go and were staying at my friends house heather so that will be funn tooo but scotts already in new york lucky bitch but alec and i will meet up with him during the week to go see the shows. its def gonna be an awesome trip and ill have videos up from the trip so people make sure you check out the youtube channel and ill def have some pictures up! but yeah so my flights at 7am leaving at 5am from my house so probably i wont goto bed tonight and just sleep on the plane but we'll see how it goes i may feel too tired and goto bed too iono but NEW YORK HERE I COME HOLLAH!

BANG BANG BANG!!!!!

So i been introduced to this awesome game called BANG two days ago.....

man i must say most addicting game ever when you have lots of people

People if you have never played this game

totally missing out!!!

anyways so today 

i woke up at 6am???

wtf i know right i woke up feeling sharp as ever 

i swear the day after u drink alcohol it feels like i was sleeping on a cloud 

it was totally awesomeee 

went back to bed woke up again at 10 am

at 12 went back to erics to finish cleaning up then went to my friend tiffs house to play bang

played for couple hours then we went for some dinner with other friends that came over to play bang at L+L 

good shittt so i gotta say today was a pretty successful day

i had fun but i gotta say sick of bang cause i played it all day so tip of advice its addicting

but dont play it so much in one day (:

oh yeah quick shout out to my friend kristy....

HAVE FUN IN ALABAMA 

AND 

A SAFE FLIGHT+ TRIPPP BRING ME SOMETHING BACK

PHOTO+VIDEO+TWITTER UPDATES!!!! (:

Anyways 

So right now im playing fucking monopoly on my comp

computers on this game are so fucking hacks 

i went to jail total of 6 times already 3 times in a row so fucking bull ever since i got out i been 

landing on owned property and i have like two properties only 

so much bull shit 

hate this game but yet so addicting

FUCK THE COMPS ON THIS GAME RAWR!!!!!!

anyways thats my day so far 

hope people are having a fun weekend tooo!

ahhh shiettttt

SO.....Ill start off by saying.....

YESTERDAY ROCKED

It was indeed a fun party

played vodka pong for like 4 rounds i think lost 2 won 2 so i dont feel shitty at all today

 for the 5th round totally pulled some kobe+peyton manning -ness when the Yeagger pong came out

I was def not gonna drink any more crap cause i was already drunk enough and had to drink for my team the previous round but its all goood we pwned that round so all good though i did throw up after the first round but after that i was good to go for rest of the party good stuff (: Oh yeah so we had totally like the best dinner menu ever too 100 chicken nuggets and 5 mcdoubles and 5 mcchickens for dinner rofl fucking scott shima didnt tell me he put the left over food in the backpack so now what do i get to eat for breakfast for the next couple days yep you guessed it MCD FUN!!!!!!!not........

Thank you for those who came to celebrate davis leaving 

thank you for those who tried to show up

thank you me for not letting me die :p

I'm so done with photos for a while

I must admit......

I think i don't want to deal with photos for a long time now

So today i wanted to post some pictures from showcase....

sounds like a great idea right

Cept, I DIDN'T have a photog or take pictures 

so what does that mean.....

I took my videos from showcase and converted them to still images

YAY Now i have photos

wait...

WTF 7,000- 20,000 ish per video

ARE YOU KIDDING ME :/ 

So i posted up about the best 120 ish pictures of showcase

at what price?

LOOKING AT 85,000 PICTURES ARGH!!!!

so my eyes hurt it took so long to import fucking 85,000 photos then looking through them to find best 20 per video

So it ended up taking me like 5 hours maybe 6

So what did i learn today?

NOT TO BE STINGY SOMETIMES YOU GOTTA GIVE UP BEING ASIAN AND MONEY SAVY

HIRE A PHOTOG WHEN YOU CANT TAKE THE FUCKING PICTURES!

I seriously gotta stop being asian and being stingy 

But on a side note so after uploading the pictures on facebook

I find it so funny when you put on a facebook album description feel free to tag yourself if you must and there be one person that will go through all 125 pictures to find themselves and tag them in each photo 

Its such a funny thought till you get to your notifications and you have 40

30 of them are the same person tagging themselves instantly making them the person most featured in that album

Funny But SUPER SAD cause i almost missed a friends comment cause that person took up the whole god damn page saying ____ tagged themselves in a photo you posted

SIgh* Kristy you know what i'm talking about haha 
one more side note so i got bored while i was waiting for 20,000 photos to import so i took random photo with my stitch hat (:

typical saturday

Today was pretty awesome day 

woke up around 10 ishhh then played ball from like 2-6 ish good worrrk outt 

then i went to the counter with my awesome friend Kelsey (:

so worth the drive to eat there so yummmmyyy 

then had some MCD ice creamm cause nj airports mcd didnt have ice cream

I felt so reunited! 

and now im updating my blogger talking to people that go to ithaca college (: 

so overall today was a good day

The end (:

BTW people dont forget tomorrow is fathers day!

SO FINALLY IM BACK UGH

So let me start off by saying HOLY FUCK IM TIRED! i just flew like 4 flights in less then 48 hrs it felt like one big long day so let me get on with the story. I'd like to start off by saying ORIENTATION ROCKED being physically being there at ithaca was amazing clean air clean scenery good stuff, i def did not wanna come back  to LA :/ (click here to see video of my trip : http://www.youtube.com/view_play_list?p=CF8B593442A11599)

So thursday....

original plan flight at 12 get to nj at 830 take the last flight to ithaca at 905 and get there by 1030 and stay over night at ithaca

Reality.......

flight got delayed due to "strong winds" bull shit they fucked up on maintenance on a flight before ours so the plane that was suppose to take us to jersey was delayed a hour so that means....

I got to new jersey at 930pm so i clearly missed the last flight to ithaca so i was stuck in jersey for the night the air line compted my a hotel ticket and 18 buck meal voucher

The room wasnt so bad so i wasnt complaining but heres where the clincher came....

so the lady that was next to me in LAX she was telling me nj airport gets busy in the morning so i shuld try to get there by 530-6 so that meant i had to get up at 4 doesnt sound so bad right well how bout this...

so after i got my hotel shit solved out it was about 1010 and when i got to hotel it was little past 1030 i went down to go eat at the restaurant/bar by the time  i got to my room it wa slike 1130 and then showered and what not 12 tossed and turned to goto bed for a hour since i slept on the plane from lax to jersey so i thnk i fell asleep at 1 but i got up at 4am showered cleaned up and left i got to jersey airport at like 5 security took me like 15 min i was in and out waiting by 530 -_- thanks lady i coulda left at liek 6 and be okay cause THERE WAS NO TRAFIC FUCK OR WAS IT BUSY

so i had time for breakfast cheapest thing was mcd :/

So i left NJ at like 8 got to ithaca around 9 yay earlier then expected

but i was still late like 30 min but i got to meet my roomate and the other transfer student in my program

set up our classes today got a tour of our beautiful theatre dept building

then lunch got our ids i feel so official at the school now

edit i had lunch before the id and scheduling but whatever you get the jist

then i left at 230pm to get on my flight bak to nj at 345pm did i mention how small ithaca airport is its so damn small its like size of a plaza lol

so i was back at jersey at 445pm i felt like shit really sick cause not enough sleep and too much flying and running around doing shit all day but in the end i felt okay after getting off the flight to lax cuase i just slep majority of the flight so good shiet i thought i was gonna die somewhere along the way in the airport

overall it was lots of fun but very mind straning it wouldnt have been that bad if continental didnt fuck up in the first place but oh well you can do anything about it i will post the link for the video i made of this trip so be sure to check it out anyways that was my crazy two days anyone else have crazy but awesome days?

Finally visiting ithaca

Finally the day is gonna come when tomorrow im going to fly into ithaca to goto orientation. Its such an odd feeling just like im stoked but not at the same time? if that even makes sense. but yeah im pretty excited i finally get to meet my dynamic duo Jenna and my roomate ryan so that should be freaking sweet (: but tomorrow is gonna be pretty crazy flight at 12 i get to ithaca at 1030 pm then orientation the next day at like 8am or something bleh and then im heading back home to here by i think 730 pm or something maybe 10 i forgot but its gonna feel like one long day. but im gonna get my id card and set up classes its gonna be cool be official student at ithaca college now (: anyways so ill have photos and such of those nature on here when i get home but do wish me a safe trip see you guys back on friday!

Now i got that post done heres to the real stuff

So now that elco is done (YAY) life is smoothing out getting ready to leave for ithaca is getting closer now but there's something that i realized while staying here.

As much as i stated i hated being here after lighting my last gig for work at west high which went well by the way you can check it out on my youtube account(http://www.youtube.com/user/thebkhasegawa) anyways......... the last two years and the three years i spent at that theatre in hs became such a precious memory and experience for me. I wont even lie i didnt even have to perform anything yesterday at the showcase but i was nervous,excited, pumped,sad and every other emotion before the show started and when it ended it really didn't sink in but now i think about it my last show now im closing another chapter in my life and especially a big part of my life if you will. I was so excited to do this show and i was so anxious to go back to the theatre and work on the showcase and once i finished programing the show after some long hours i realized this is it...my last show and it def sunk hard in my heart. And its like as much as i say i hated rehearsals or the fact that we had some or complaining about how much i hated some stuff from shows and cast and whatever in the end i realized the theatre is the place for me id trade in all my schools day to be in the theatre all day and staying the last two years and getting more experience and time to figure out my life im sure now and i can say this is the path i want to take.

I just wanted to take the time to thank everyone who helped me get this far. As i get closer to my goals and dreams. I especially want to thank my boss/drama teacher that got me here and the play production class even tho at times i felt like strangling you guys, you guys will always have a special place in my heart and definitely made my last two years such an awesome experience.

the 5 years at the theatre at whs an experience ill never forget and will always carry those memories with me thank you so much for what you have brought to my life and as much as i dont want to leave it i gotta take this opportunity and the chance i been given to go do something great for theatre. I def will not let anyone down and carry that fatass chip on my shoulder and prevail.  So everyone at home please keep believing in me and for all you doubters keep on doubting me because when i succeed you'll feel dumb for doubting me. ha but yeah i feel like im rambling now so im gonna stop now but on a side note going to ithaca this thursday and friday for orientation excitedd baby (:

Sooooo time to get back to blogging but before that....

I have to say Kristy is.....
PRETTY EPIC AND AWESOME
BUT ALSO A COMPLETE DITZ
(:

greeeaasseeeee

god freaking grease is taking up all the time in my life right now i dont have time to write here often anymore :/ blah this week has been a shitstorm and probably not gonna get any better blah i still need to study for my anatomy test thats on tuesday which i havnt even started to study for ugh i have a B right now but i guess its gonna go down soon :/ ughhh but other then that rehearsals are pretty fun and we got some bomb lighting equipment so im pretty stoked for that. for those wondering how im having time to write here right now well im in japanese class so yeah i dont really need to do anything ahhaha i guess this is like my break cause after class i gotta head off to wrk for grease anyways hope you guys all have a nice day1

Mooning!!!!

GAh im so addicted to this song for some reason such a good song! i guess it cant be helped only my favorite song in grease....


ROGER
I spent my day just mooning so sad and blue so sad and blue
I spent my nights just mooning over you
JAN
All over who
ROGER
Well I'm so full of love as any fool can see
'Cause angels up above have hung the moon on me
JAN
Why must you go
ROGER
Why must I go
BOTH
On mooning
JAN
So all alone
ROGER
So all alone
There would be no more mooning if you would call me
JAN
Up on the phone
ROGER
I guess I'll keep on striking poses
'Till my cheeks have lost there roses
BOTH
Mooning over you
ROGER
I'll stand behind
JAN
You'll stand beihind me
ROGER
Mooning forever more
JAN
Forever more
ROGER
Someday you'll find me mooning at your front door
JAN
At my front door
ROGER
Oh, everyday at school I watch ya
Always will until I got you mooning too
There's a moon out tonight

BLAHHH

So sorry i havnt been updating i been really busy with anatomy and now with grease not that i dont think many people care but for my own sake my bad... BUT i owned that anatomy test and i got accepted to ITHACA with a 5000 buck scholarship HOLLAH but yeah when i took that test i actually knew more then i thought i did hahah pretty awesome i guess my asian side came out ahah anyways so now onto grease bleh 6-10pm rehearsals everyday now bummer so i wont be updating as much but hopefully i ll have picture ups and stuff now i wait on #2 and #1 depaul and cinci i hope i get but anyways  so till then  will keep everyone update see  ya later!

So this weekend....

i must start off by saying i still  hate anatomy BUT saturday was pretty awesome day and here is why......

tell me doesnt that look good and   deadly??

first off studied but that was gay BUT then for lunch went to The counter with michelle.. OH MY so legit burgeres were SOOOOOOOOOOOOO good and their sweet potato fries were homeruns status that def. made my afternoon

but then it gets even  better so i stuided a little more then left for KOLABORATION mutha fuckkaa was so legit. Kevjamba wonfu david choi and so many more other people were there it was awesome quite memorable PK's last show so went on a pretty awesome day but yeah when i got home from kolab i was def. fucked cause i stared at anatomy and was like wow its over for me but it was so worth it plus we got to be in the pit so it was win even though my foot hurt after... thank you scott shima alec and davis for making that well needed break worth it!

and today meh it wasnt so bad me and anatomy were kinda getting along today so props for us lol we'll see how that test goes tuseday to be countinuuueeddddd

its great to be back in the theatre!

Even though Anatomy is been stressing me these days but theres one thing i can depend on to relieve me and make me feel all normal and comfortable. Theatre! yeah i said it theatre! yeah rehearsal was meh today but that doesnt even matter that much the fact that im back in the environment feels great i feel so much better. Its nice to be able to catch up with people i havnt seen in a long time and stuff. Just going to rehearsal was great and now realizing im pretty fucked for grease cause im mega behind but still im reallly happy i got to go back today it just makes me feel so nice inside. But right now im watching the best thing i ever ate the two best things that put me back on the norm NOW TO POUND OUT ANATOMY!!! YEH YAAAAHHHH anyways gonna go back to watching best thing i ever ate then anatomy. Oh yeah i got phone chat with head of lighting with depaul tmrw morning wish me luck!

aaannnddd whyy do things go this way i dunno?

now i have to start off by saying i hated high school and i probably am going to still now after i been hearing about what immature highschoolers still do to get back at people when it doesn't go their way. its just really sad and dumb. Some people when they are in hs they think there so all mighty and things have to go that way and reason being i hated high school was cause there was alot of people like that in my class but now i even hate it more now that some of my friends got fucked over from these immature methods. You see so much more when u start to work for a hs and realize fuck i was a dumb shit in hs for doing shit like what u see. Its almost sad as georgie bush but then again its hard to out sad him anyways anatomy still sucks no letters friends getting fucked and rutgers harassing me to goto a brunch thing with them fun not... grease starts soon which means grease music for the next 2 weeks to memorize and script memorizing fun stufff :/

anatomy is bullshit

So much shit to memorize so much bull crappp. but i must say thank you daveday gave me new inspiration for next video for harrow (: so day 3 i got nothing :/ sad face still waiting on colleges and its raining right now yay i love rain cept i dont know where my um berrraaaa is greatttt........ but oh well this week should be not so bad its next week when my test is when ill be raging lawl gotta love my life PSYCH anyways short post today gotta go back to memorizing peace!

okay so Day2.....

So Day 2 brought me nothing :/  better luck on day 3....

But yeah oh well it was nice getting to talk to my english professor again at school. it was some good stuff a lot of good convos so i guess that was the good part of the day. Now im trying to study for anatomy test which im pretty screwed for so yeahh gotta get back to studying oh anatomy you complete my life in the fucking my life over division BLEH

wow i fail!

ugh i cant believe i forgot to write on here last night my bad...

im in anatomy right now talking about chemical levels of organization fun stuff not... yesterday was a pretty good monday i need to start studying for anatomy test next tuesday :/ But i think i should be fine with lots of preparation since its the only class i really need to study for. Im gonna start studying today when i get home from anatomy today gotta at least get a B on this test so i dont fall too behind... NOW on to better news


Yay its March that means college acceptances!!! i hope i get in i feel like im a dog waiting for a doggie treat every day like right around 3;30 i just sit near the door and right when i hear the mail drop im like running to my door to check my mail haha. So Day1 i got nothing :/ now Day 2 lets hope for some happy good news (: people keep on praying for me for good news (: Ill have another entry later blah i need to be more consistent with this every day at least one entry come on!

haha wow

So two days in a row went to bed at 6am hahaha literally saw the sun rising this morning when i went to bed haha. Yesterday was a lot of fun good funny moments loved it Thank you for all the people that came yesterday! Now today i got to play my beloved sport basketball again fucking anatomy pmo so it was nice to go out and shoot hoops with crew again. I need to get back into shape again anyways and now i sit on my bed delaying on anatomy hw sigh the hw keeps on getting longer every time blahhh. but on the bright side MARCH IS AROUND THE CORNER  COLLEGE ACCEPTANCES PLEASE UCIN, DEPAUL, ITHACA TAKE ME i love your guys school thank you bye! ahahhaha

20th birthday!

Yay happy birthday me! thank you everyone for your birthday wishes to me means a lot! so i went to bed at like 6am today haha talking to people and what not good shit right woke up at 10 didnt get out of my bed till 12 ate some udon. My dad came home today from his business trip today i guess its nice that hes back but i dont get to use the living room freely now sad face...


but now im almost off to K1 with my friends pretty excited hopefully ill have pictures and videos of k1 today and thenn KRN BBQ TODAY YEH YEH hhaha so pretty excited for today hope every goes well and hope the rain doesnt fuck up too many people anyways thanks everyone and have  a nice day!

4hours till im 20 lol

I dunno wether to be excited to be 20 in a couple hours i guess thats pretty nifty thing. i have a pretty fun jam packed day waiting for me k1 krn bbq hanging out with friends a lot of things to do tmrw i cant wait one more year after tmrw then 21 ahhaa VEGAS baby! For those coming tomorrow hopefully we can all have fun! Ohhhhh best thing i ever ate the new episode is coming on tonight gotta watch it cant miss it! anyways will update tmrw about my so called jam packed day coming up!

a Chip on my shoulder

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hmmm i must agree with this picture cept i feel this way maybe like 300 days of the 365 in a year maybe more.. it seems in my life i have a chip on my shoulder im not going to digress too much upon this but  one because im sure people dont really care about my hate stories  but its been bothering me so i guess ill type out my fury to some extent... I guess its a conflicting thought and yet hard to understand. Do i love my brother and sister? I dont know because as much as i want to say yes at the same time i hate them with a passion. all my life they fueled this space for love but yet this feeling of hate. It's like whatever i do its not good enough just because they went to berkley big deal... my sisters a fine lawyer now great whats my brother a worthless piece of shit. What ever i do whether i do good or bad its always i get compared to that little shit. when ever i do something bad "why cant u be like janet and robert" when i do something good "robert is (insert fail at work)" i never get talked about i'm "only child" so wheres the attention i get none i get none Here i am close to going some where good #4 in the nation for my major and my dad here still is telling me why arnt u going to berkley. I just wish people could understand that Berkley isnt great for everything too bad i want to go somwhere with my life and away from where i live im glad i can leave. I met too many people here who dont appreciate the talent side of people and only think academics is the best majors not going to state any names but im tired of people like this i guess it cant be helped because we are in a state with high academic universities but sitll poor and dumb as shit anyways how does that work? i dont know but im glad that i could be going somwhere where my presence is going to be appreciated unlike these shit hole fags in california and people wonder why i want to leave CA why dont u go ask ure self why wouldnt u want to leave this shitty ass state. cource if ure reading this it probably doesnt make sense cause theres alot of info missing and facts that help the story but i dont care enough for who ever is reading if anyone is to understand my story this is more for me not anyone else. i just want to be accepted as not such a failure in life and not a disgrace but then again im starting not to care anymore cause i try and its like whatever i do its not good enough so whatever maybe this isnt the place for me

you would think couple days before my birthday id be happy and chirpy ha what a wrong guess there

argh!!!

Damn schools been kinda screwing me over with my blogger entrying ness. At least today anatomy wasnt such a bitch we're actually getting along for once but i feel like i let myself down my goal of doing entries every day=fail sigh*! oh well this week is gonna be a good week couple more days until i hit the big two OH pretty stoked going to k1 and krn bbq thats pretty win celebration if u ask me but then agian after i have to start studying for anatomy test two weeks from now haha so i guess fun first study later is how it goes ahha. But in all honestly i feel pretty blessed with the stuff thats been happening recently with me I have a chance for some greatness for my career in theatre and so many great things coming up. So world thanks for everything even anatomy well depends hahah i guess anatomy can be good some times (:

WOW FILMING WEEKEND

Damn i was tired as shit this morning but i didn't do much today due to waking up so damn late but here the link to our master piece

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5xSvdsRro8I

anyways so i woke up ate lunch then did some anatomy hw once again stressing my brain out like usual. but i got to cook dinner today made me happy (: 

Spinach Carbonara FTW!!!!!!! 

it came out so good so i was very pleased anyways good weekend very busy very tired but very much a fun packed weekend! as i do my laundry right now ahha

FILMING!

OH MY so tired we just finished filming like 2 hours ago and editing SIGH* so tired youtube is taking so long to upload our video but once i get it up ill share the link but yeah man today was a long day 8 hour filming day GG 2 hours of editing so tireddddd but yeahh today was a pretty fun day now tmrw to do anatomy FUCK!!!!!

faiiiillll

DAMNNNN I didnt write in my blog last night and thursday wow epic faillllllll :/ oh well ill be updating about my day today is once again another filming day for HARROW (:

ANATOMY SUCKS

i hate anatomy :/ simple and short today almost time for interview on friday (: anyways gotta try to go finish  short one for today (:

I HATE ANATOMY

WOW SUCH A HARD CLASS SO MANY FUCKING VOCAB WORDS FOR CHAPTER 1 already SHIT! lol man my professor is so gg hes like for the lab if u misspell the word on the lab test u get it wrong sucks wow so not fair and then the homework is so gg hard its like i met anatomy today and i already broke up with it lol so sadall these bones and wording for certain things like freaking arm is brachial WTF man ITS A ARM UGH RAWR but other then that contemp health sounds interesting lets see how jap is tmrw and dramtic lit please dont be dick move like anatomy

Last day of Break

I spent day as T if you know what i mean. haha other then that i woke up with a minor cold which kinda sucked meh but i just watched food network all day and played some ps3 good shit. It was definitely a good break now im in the Home stretch before transferring. I have rotted my brain enough with COD, Final fantasy 13 and madden and nba live so now back to school and Grease. I'm actually kinda excited for grease believe it or not though i know a lot would disagree with me. Is all good ill be sure to help it make it run for everyones money. Though i must admit the waiting game is killing me not having school is making me think about college interviews and where i got in or hope to get in and the ideal situation and all that shit i find myself looking at the school's programs for every school applied to imagining myself there shit i wish they could just tell you there if you get in or not RAWR i just wanna know where i wanna get in.

Sundae Grenade

SO today HAPPY SINGLES AWARENESS DAY! HURRAAAAHHH Sigh* well its almost done yay Valentines day pretty GG holiday if you ask me because chances are people are just as emotional and passionate with their significant others on a daily basis anyways. So its like wow lets celebrate a holiday where we just state out the passionate feelings for each other and make it public so stupid. Yes im just cynical that i dont have a valentine either but whatever. Plus it wasn't so bad cause according to some people im a BP so GG ahhaah i dont know if thats really a compliment or insult but is all goood.

On a better note finally Harrow Productions is back on track we made our Chinese New Years Video it was some good shit lol Now how did i spend the day? We made the story board and filmed this morning and into mid way into the afternoon It was good to be back in filming and all that stuff fun stuff heres the link to our video

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6RG3f_JoNxw

Later i hung out with my friends at china town so random but it was fun we ate at sam woo good chinese food Then steven and eric went to MCD and got sundays then Steven came up with the great invention Sundae GRENADE/CLAYMORE/SHOTGUN LAWL some good shit. At the end of the day i had a pretty good day except for some exceptions with certain people cause they would fuck it up but degaf!

Song of the day-Vanilla Twilight (Owl City)

I have FCA

So i know people are wondering wtf is FCA man Food Channel Addiction. i swear now i have HD on my cable the food just looks like million times better all i do is watch FC now all the time when i get home hahaha and on the weekends too. Tho i must admit i love throw down with Bobby Flay and The Best thing i ever ate those are probably one of the best shows. Man i should start watching top chef again i was so into that show during my senior year in high school ha ha All i do is watch liek FC from liek 3pm-6:30 until fucking crazy Paula comes on then i switch back to Friends and the office haha

Anyways today was pretty chill woke up my window area in my room all clean now yesterday or more like this morning at like 2 am haha had to clean the mold buildup from the rain so nasty but now its all clean it was fresh way to wake up. I went to play basketball for the first time in like a month today it felt really good even tho i played pretty crappy meh itll pick up as it goes.

Dinner i had Kimchi hot pot japanese style some good shit keeps you warm and now im still watching food channel as i type haha Guy's Dine n dive hahaha i just love food channel (:

pretty fucked up Friday

I must admit today was pretty weird day and yet interesting... Day started off normal like any other day woke up played some ps3 then went to west to take care of some work stuff and see some friends i havnt seen in a while that part its all normal and grand its what happened the 2nd half of my day.

So couple of my friends and i went to carrows to just eat and hang out what not table  next to us was some crazy shit. This mexican family just had a rage fit like i guess from what we conspired watching the scene and the small dialog that was announced in the restaurant. The youngest girl in the family was shocked to find that her dad is seeing someone new already after her mom had died and flipped and threw her water then her dad got up to slap her then the oldest sister got up to get her sis's back and she was like "My Mom just died I cant believe him" or something relevantly close to that and the girls booked it and the dad booked it and the lady the dude was seeing was like pft just leave them but the dad went after her kids and he took a smack at them. Some pretty fucked up shit. Yet no one in the restaurant did anything when the dad hit his child thats some wrong shit doing that shit in public its not right at all :/

why cant we hug shit out sigh* BUT i hope everyone has a good weekend!

Good day yesterday

so i have 6 min left to write about today so today was like epic fail to epic greatness within the last couple hours tho i must admit im quite surprised on how things have turned out for my friends and I. It a good feeling to know everything is back to normal for us. Im done hating on certain people it was like a catalysis effect that made me hate on more things that i didnt need to hate on and im sorry for if it caused any trouble to anyone. Just knowing that everythings gonna be fixed is a great feeling oh shit one min left gotta post this now so anyways everything all good happy day i got 4.0 this semester and everythings fixed legit day so i failed to finish this in 6min lol so i guess i shal digress more i just really hope things stay the way they are now cause like for real i literally just dropped everything now cause of this awesome ness flowing around just hope it sticks around till the end!