a Chip on my shoulder

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hmmm i must agree with this picture cept i feel this way maybe like 300 days of the 365 in a year maybe more.. it seems in my life i have a chip on my shoulder im not going to digress too much upon this but  one because im sure people dont really care about my hate stories  but its been bothering me so i guess ill type out my fury to some extent... I guess its a conflicting thought and yet hard to understand. Do i love my brother and sister? I dont know because as much as i want to say yes at the same time i hate them with a passion. all my life they fueled this space for love but yet this feeling of hate. It's like whatever i do its not good enough just because they went to berkley big deal... my sisters a fine lawyer now great whats my brother a worthless piece of shit. What ever i do whether i do good or bad its always i get compared to that little shit. when ever i do something bad "why cant u be like janet and robert" when i do something good "robert is (insert fail at work)" i never get talked about i'm "only child" so wheres the attention i get none i get none Here i am close to going some where good #4 in the nation for my major and my dad here still is telling me why arnt u going to berkley. I just wish people could understand that Berkley isnt great for everything too bad i want to go somwhere with my life and away from where i live im glad i can leave. I met too many people here who dont appreciate the talent side of people and only think academics is the best majors not going to state any names but im tired of people like this i guess it cant be helped because we are in a state with high academic universities but sitll poor and dumb as shit anyways how does that work? i dont know but im glad that i could be going somwhere where my presence is going to be appreciated unlike these shit hole fags in california and people wonder why i want to leave CA why dont u go ask ure self why wouldnt u want to leave this shitty ass state. cource if ure reading this it probably doesnt make sense cause theres alot of info missing and facts that help the story but i dont care enough for who ever is reading if anyone is to understand my story this is more for me not anyone else. i just want to be accepted as not such a failure in life and not a disgrace but then again im starting not to care anymore cause i try and its like whatever i do its not good enough so whatever maybe this isnt the place for me

you would think couple days before my birthday id be happy and chirpy ha what a wrong guess there